I know since the time i have started my blog i've been writing silly monotonous and sad blogs but the fact is i am sad, since the time i left C.A. till now that i am waiting for my law entrance and my graduation exams to get over. I am actually tired of hoping for a miracle to happen and satisfy me coz reality is nothing can actually satisfy me. I was trying all these months to search for a well paid career, actually not well paid but for one which pays more than C.A., every place i went there were so many people asking me how was my C.A. going and i had to say its going fine and its on hold. C.A. is like a reputed profession, a matter of pride for every relative of mine. I know some of you may feel that i should join C.A. back but i don't want to go back to that depressing profession again. Actually again career is not a problem i have this mental block in my mind that i don't deserve to shop, hang out, meet people coz i am an example of failure, a looser to be blunt. Every time i have to ask something from mom the only thing that revolves in my mind is i am sitting idle at home and i should not go out, i am tired...........................

Why does it happen????
Why is it that the thing i feel is rite the other people don't think it is???? Me and my friend Anubhava why is it happening these days that we are loosing the understanding between us, those small things that i never thought would matter are now actually becoming the reasons for our fights. Like wishing HAPPY BIRTHDAY to some friend whom i should not befriend according to her, i am not saying that i don't like her interference in my life and personal matters coz honestly i like it when she says don't do it it'll cause you problem but then why is there difference of opinions???? I wish life was as perfect as it was 4 months ago when we just met but then life is not BED OF ROSES, plus i think she is a part of my life now and she needs to tell me whats wrong and what's rite.

“It were not best that we should all think alike; it is difference of opinion that makes horse races”

- Mark Twain

Ya maybe now that she tells me whats wrong that's why i introspect and get to know the reality......
And i know myself i am quite impulsive so i think i should solve the matter myself and say sorry :( SORRY ANBHAVA.....

Few days back when Rahul's swayamvar ended i must say i felt bad, i mean it was quite an entertainment yaar. Being a girl i enjoyed watching what the girls were wearing, cooking and how were they flirting, i mean i dont kow exactly how many girls were there but WTF yaar all them were trying to (lemme use this word) seduce him. My favorite contestant was Priyadarshani, what a girl yaar !! if Rahul would have married her she would have put him on the right track (daant daant k), and there was this another girl Nikunj Malik (btw i m not self praising or something bt some people say i look like her) she was also like verrrryyyy goooodddd, verrryyyyyy goooddd looking and a bit arrogant too. First of all i don't understand if you really love a person how could you manage when you see him flirting, kissing, hugging the other girls????? that too verry passionately????? WTF yaar.....

Rahul got married to Dimpy who coincidentally shares the same birth date with Rahul, but i think she and Rahul make a good couple i mean dono same same hai. Rahul (as admitted by him) had many relationships before going for the Swayamvar drama and as per media reports of Dimpy even she had many relationships before she got married, Rahul (as said by Nikunj Malik) drinks alot and Dimpy also gets drunk and do stupid things......hehehehhehehe. But there is one thing that is uncommon and i don't think Dimpy would ever be able to copy or inculcate in herself and that is that million dollar laugh of Rahul Mahajan... Hehehehehhehehe. I really feel Rahul should enter some Laughter challenge as a contestant, you bet he'll win only by making people laugh at his LAUGH..... hehehehhehe ( i being verryy mean, Sorry Rahul)

Now the gossip in the air is that Rahul knew Dimpy even before the Swayamvar Drama and so the other girls are feeling cheated..... WTF?????
Girls just imagine agar yeh Swayamvar nahi hota toh kya aap sabko itni media attention milti????? Jo bhi hua now be happy..

BUT I REALLY MISS SWAYAMVAR YAAR THERE'S NO MORE ENTERTAINMENT LEFT ON TV.... :(

Since the time i've started getting driving lessons the one word that my trainer says everyday is have patience and one reply that i give him everyday is yes i need to be patient coz everyone else seems to have lost theirs....

Driving daily (with my trainer) has actually made me realise that world stops for none, everyone is busy in their own life struggling to get space and move on and thats actually a life lesson. My trainer gives me a lesson everyday,recently while i was trying to take a U turn he said "if you don't snatch the opportunity someone else would and you'll keep waiting for your turn" and that's actually true I've worked in a CA office myself, not that CA offices are bad or something but i know for a reason that in every office the scenario is same, if you don't do a work or hesitate to do something (like asking for help)to complete it, it will be given to someone else, no one would come and say "don't worry, you'll do better next time" coz there will be no next times, as my friend says "No time to rehearse coz its showtime baby"

It doesn't matter if we believe it or we don't but we are becoming emotionless day by day, the world is materialistic and will remain so. Gone are the days when people had real unconditional love for each other, everyday in newspapers we read cases of brothers fighting and murdering each other, children throwing their parents out of their houses etc etc. Today only when i was driving an old lady was begging, i said to my trainer "Bhaiya, she looks like she's from a good family why is she begging?" and bhaiya said "she lives nearby only and her two sons ans daughter-in laws have thrown him out of the house", i feel pity for that lady but more than that i feel slapping her sons. What are we people doing????

As life moves on we make future plans and when that future actually comes we change our mind and then modify/reverse/cancel that plan, this happens with me every time i mean why do i even bother to plan for future. At first i was planning for MAt and then getting scared about the results and when the MAT results are finally out i don't want to do MBA from a MAT college................... uuuuffffffffff why am i so confused in life????????????

but jokes apart i think whatever happens, happens for a reason maybe god has something better for me other than MAT college. Well i hope so and waise bhi i dont have anything else other than HOPE.......

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL (SINGLES + COUPLES)

Till five minutes ago i used to feel that Valentines Day is only for romantic couples who exchange gifts, meet and talk but not now. My sweet friend sabby whom i haven't met till date even though we've been friends for like more than a year now just told me how this V day is for everyone who loves us and whom we love. She just told me through fb how on every V day the first thing that she does is give a V day card to her Grandpa, i am literally touched.

Sabby wrote
"valentine day is not for bf and gf !!
biggest misconception ever !!! its for all we love...thank god for blessing u with all those who love u soo much..they are ur true valentine :))), i wish my dadaji valentines day 1st thing in the mrng and send him a card since i was 8 :)
for me thats y this day is special
yeh specifications humne hi bnaaye hai..y let them distrb us..its upto us whether we wanna be happy or not?"

i am still thinking do people like sabby still exist in this world??? Maybe no or maybe there are just few of them, i have seen people complaining about not having a bf or their bf not giving them time on V day (me being one of them) but some people like sabby know how to be happy.

Sabby's comment made me realize that just like love is for everyone its between parents and children, teacher and students, friends, your relatives and you, your cousins and you and your siblings the V day is for everyone too, like in sabby's case she celebrated her V day by giving her grandpa a card we can also make someone we love happy by if not giving a card a simple wish saying Happy V day and a smile. We should take a step to move forward if we want to be happy and make others happy too......

Yesterday i had my entrance exam for MBA known as MAT following are the thoughts before, during and after the exam

Before the exam:
Status:
at 9:45am (exam starts at 10 am)

Looking here and there and thinking what king of people do MBA..... hmmmm there are few stylish girls with straightened hair, a guy resembling Rahul Gandhi, a boy struggling with the answer sheet to circle the ovals for email id (even though it was optional......huh)and ya a guy or no he is someone sitting with crossed legs and getting over friendly with the sardarji sitting in front of him and doing those girly hand movements....ooooohhh dont know who is he/she, but hey he seems funny i cant stop laughing

at 9:55
Stop it Aanchal exam is just going to begun focus and btw you are looking like a joker laughing like this..... ooookk shutup focus exam hai.....

at 10:00
Exam start ho gaya


at 11:50
How many questions have i done just look at the girl sitting on the left...
OMG i think i am doing good she hasn't done many, anyways focus still many questions left......

at 12:15
How many questions have i done just look at the girl sitting in front....
OMG i think i am not doing good she has done more than me....

Sir: Only 15 min left
Me: Ok Aanchal focus, focus, focus....

and suddenly someone's phone rings and rings and rings continuously playing some 90's filmi song

Guy resembling Rahul Gandhi: Sir please stop it
Sir: what???? is this a phone with the music??? ok ok
Me ( thinking): hahahahahahahahaha sir please these phones were available like a decade ago, please update yourself this is a phone........lolzzzz hahahahaha, ok stop it Aanchal please concentrate...


at 12:30
Exam over
and i am looking here and there to see other people reactions

Girls: ok ok
Boys: Kitne attempt kiye? arrree i did this much, maths was tough, maine bahut tukke maare
That crossed leg guy chatting with sardarji: hey kaisa hua???
Me looking at him and still laughing.....

me to myself: Stop it exam is over now leave the room and stop laughing you are looking like a joker....

at 1:30
After chatting with other friends who gave MAT along with me

Me to myself: What will happpen if i don't clear MAT???? Next law entrance?? Maybe. By the way (BTW) how many questions did i do??? oohhh god i didn't even make flukes??